I have to forgive myself for having
a bad moment when I yelled at my kids.
I have to forgive myself for having
a bad hour when I put on another movie for my kids and went back to bed…or
when I locked them out of my room so I could take a bath in peace.
I have to forgive myself for having
a bad day when we didn’t leave the house, or even get dressed, or accomplish
anything at all.
I have to forgive myself for having
a bad week when my bad day turned into seven in a row.
Instead I have to focus on my good
moment when I didn’t yell at my son, but calmly asked him for the umpteenth
time to put his shoes away or brush his teeth.
I have to focus on my good hour
when I began teaching my daughter to read.
I have to focus on my good day when
I got all of us dressed, the house clean, errands ran, went to the gym, and
played with my kids—I ignore the fact that we weren’t wearing matching clothes,
the laundry is still in the washer, I forgot the main thing I went to the store
for, my husband made dinner-Again! And
playing with the kids and making dinner messed up the house I spent hours cleaning…that’s
just life!
I have to forget and forgive myself
practically every moment of every day because I’m just a mom. But I’m a mom that gets out of bed
everyday—even if it’s at 9 or 10 am sometimes.
I’m a mom that adores her children even when they ignore me. I’m a mom that teaches her children they
can and should be better than their mother.
I’m a mom that tries and tried and tries again because that’s how much I
fail, but I will NEVER give up—that’s just NOT what mom’s do.
I forgive myself all day until late
at night when everyone else is sound asleep I beg my Heavenly Father to forgive
me and ‘Please, PLEASE help me to be a better mother. Help me to stop yelling—I can’t do it on my
own. Help me prioritize and do the
essential first. Please help my children
know I love them especially when I’m not showing it as I should. And Father, please help my children not
remember all my bad, but remember the good.
But if they must remember some of my bad, please, PLEASE help them to
forgive me too!